We watched "Slumdog Millionaire" last night.. and it's goooooooooood.
I highly recommend that you watch it :)
So go do it!
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
=D
SOOOO.
Remember how I said I sent my advisor up at Gallaudet an email asking how long it would take to hear back and etc?
WELL.
She emailed me back this morning and I'm accepted!!!!! =D I love that it only took a WEEK. Ahhmazing.
So I'm now a "bison"! whoooo! I'm exciiiiited
=D
Remember how I said I sent my advisor up at Gallaudet an email asking how long it would take to hear back and etc?
WELL.
She emailed me back this morning and I'm accepted!!!!! =D I love that it only took a WEEK. Ahhmazing.
So I'm now a "bison"! whoooo! I'm exciiiiited
=D
I won't defend myself
It's been forever and a day since I've really updated.. It's always been on the back of mind like, "dang jenee, you REALLY need to update that blog" and then it's like eh screw that ha.
ALOT has been going on.. life has been pretty crazy but everything really is going well and I'm super happy.
We went to DC and I loooooovvveeddddd it.. I didn't want to come home ha. The campus was very nice, although in the GHETTO ha.. I'm talking straight-up GHETTO ha! We looked outside the window at one point from one of the hotel rooms and it was at the end of campus, you could see the fence and all and right outside was a spot where homeless people stay HA! It was kinda funny :) (not the homeless people thing, but just the fact that they were right there) But anyywayys. I finally got my essays written and my application sent in last week so now I'm just waiting to hear back I guess. I sent my advisor up there an e-mail asking how long she thinks until I'll hear something back and if I should go ahead and apply for housing or if I'm supposed to wait until I get a guarantee and I have yet to hear back so we'll see! I went from being really excited to being like "uhhhh I don't think I really wanna go that much anymore" and now I'm back to getting excited but I'm finally starting to get scared shiiiitless. But I'm not going to let my fears get the best of me, this is an opportunity that is wayyy too good to pass up.
For Spring Break we went to South Padre Island and I had sooooo much fun! I let/made myself relax and enjoy myself and hung out with Jack and Welsey the majority of the time, mainly Jack, and we just sat back and watched others and had some interesting convos and fun times and just really had a good ol' time. Everybody was pretty much depressed coming back to Lubbock because nobody wanted to come home :(
But spring break has been controversial obviously amongst some of those close to me.
2009 has been an extreme rollercoaster of ups and downs; I've gone through something that I would never ever wish upon anybody, no matter how much I don't like you.. and along with everything else going on I've been extremely stressed out/tense and could not bring myself to just calmm downnn. I've gotten to the point where at times my hands shake, my face will get red and just burn/get hot and I have to just keep what I'm doing but just mentally tell myself "calm down, take a breather" and it doesn't always work so I just let it blow over and it's kind of scary at times because idk if one day I'm just going to start hyperventilating or something and just completely freak out so I think I'm going to have to go to the doctor or something to get some medication to help me calm down. But anyways, that was happening quite often and over spring break, I got to get away from all the stresses of what was going in Lubbock and didn't have to worry about a single thing and I cannot even begin to stress how amazing and nice that was. I didn't think about what was going on, didn't think about school, didn't think about work, didn't think about anything besides what was going on in that exact moment.. I remember standing outside one day and I started thinking and I was like "wow, I haven't thought about that in a few days" whereas what I was thinking about is something I think about everyday and it was just amazing really. I don't think I've really ever gotten the chance to relax that much, every trip I've been on has been with family or just hasn't been a long enough trip to actually relax that well and I'm not gonna lie, being near the beach wasn't so bad either ;) So anyways, ever since we got back, I've just been more relaxed and just more in the moment. And I have let loose and started enjoying myself more and will admit that I am being rebellious and getting alittle crazy but it's a phase I'm just going through. I've finally let my hair down after always being told to loosen up. And just tonight, by a very dear friend, was told that I had changed and wasn't the same person anymore and along with a few other things that really did hurt but won't be mentioned... What I have to say is: I'm not going to apologize for being who I am and for what I've done; I've learned from my actions and always take full responsibility for what I've done. I'm a smart girl, but as said, going through a phase, I'm being young and having fun and doing what I want to do.. I'm not going to just go completely bonkers, just experiencing life. So calm down. Some people just think that they really do understand fully and completely what one is going through and really, they don't. But, I'm done there.. I'm not going to defend myself. I don't have to, I deserve to be happy.
-Anyways, there is alot more I could say about about that, but I won't.
On another note, last week was a pretty hard week for some of us.. My brother's dog Treg had died and that was a pretty hard blow on all of us, esp Jaryd and Holly. Treg was one of the most amazzziiiiiing dogs EVER. Jaryd had taught him some tricks that were sooo funny and cute like you would wave at Treg and he would wave back.. that one was my favorite. I'm going to miss him like crazy, I already do. But I think the hardest part about it was knowing that Jaryd was sad and that there was nothing I could do. I'm a strong person but Jaryd is like 15 million times stronger than I am and I look up to him SO much and just knowing that he was hurt and sad just tore my heart apart. And then there was Holly, who made an unbelievable sacrifice for Jaryd that just makes me love her even more because it really does show just how much she loves and cares for Jaryd. I'm glad he had her there for him last week because I don't think he would've let any of us be there for him as much as she was for him. But anyways, thank you Holly for being there for him and loving and caring for him as much as you and for making the sacrifice, as hard as it was for you. Love yew :)
Speaking of dogs, Barbara has gotten Kylie into obdience classes and she's starting to get alittle smarter, but is still a brat. B has also gotten Maddie into agility classes and she's SOO excited about it.. She had to start her later into the class, by a few weeks, because of it being Valentine's Day at the store and not being able to give her time to the class and they let her start late anyways and Maddie has done amazing! She caught on reaalllllllllly fast; the teacher thought she had already taken another agility class, when she's never even done the stuff. So it's pretty cool :) She's such a smart dog.. she's one of those dogs that you could NOT show her how to do something but just tell her and she'll do it. (Okay, maybe not THAT extreme but you catch my drift) But anyways, I'm excited for B bc I know how much she loves doing that stuff and how much she loves dogs so its her "relaxing" time and Lord knows she needs a lot more of that. It'll be interesting to see how much Maddie develops and can't wait to see when she can do it all! :) Gunner is still cute as everrrrr. He's right there when I get home and follows me all the way to my room because he knows he's fixing to get alot of loving :) He's so frickin cute.
Anyways, it's late and I need to get some sleeeeeeep.
OH! Here's a little "quote" that I've fallen in love with that I now have on my "about me" on Myspace ha.
There is an inner beauty about a woman who believes in herself, who knows she is capable of anything she puts her mind to. There is a beauty in the strength and determination of a woman whose confidence comes from experiences; who knows she can fall, pick herself up and move on.
Until next time :)
ALOT has been going on.. life has been pretty crazy but everything really is going well and I'm super happy.
We went to DC and I loooooovvveeddddd it.. I didn't want to come home ha. The campus was very nice, although in the GHETTO ha.. I'm talking straight-up GHETTO ha! We looked outside the window at one point from one of the hotel rooms and it was at the end of campus, you could see the fence and all and right outside was a spot where homeless people stay HA! It was kinda funny :) (not the homeless people thing, but just the fact that they were right there) But anyywayys. I finally got my essays written and my application sent in last week so now I'm just waiting to hear back I guess. I sent my advisor up there an e-mail asking how long she thinks until I'll hear something back and if I should go ahead and apply for housing or if I'm supposed to wait until I get a guarantee and I have yet to hear back so we'll see! I went from being really excited to being like "uhhhh I don't think I really wanna go that much anymore" and now I'm back to getting excited but I'm finally starting to get scared shiiiitless. But I'm not going to let my fears get the best of me, this is an opportunity that is wayyy too good to pass up.
For Spring Break we went to South Padre Island and I had sooooo much fun! I let/made myself relax and enjoy myself and hung out with Jack and Welsey the majority of the time, mainly Jack, and we just sat back and watched others and had some interesting convos and fun times and just really had a good ol' time. Everybody was pretty much depressed coming back to Lubbock because nobody wanted to come home :(
But spring break has been controversial obviously amongst some of those close to me.
2009 has been an extreme rollercoaster of ups and downs; I've gone through something that I would never ever wish upon anybody, no matter how much I don't like you.. and along with everything else going on I've been extremely stressed out/tense and could not bring myself to just calmm downnn. I've gotten to the point where at times my hands shake, my face will get red and just burn/get hot and I have to just keep what I'm doing but just mentally tell myself "calm down, take a breather" and it doesn't always work so I just let it blow over and it's kind of scary at times because idk if one day I'm just going to start hyperventilating or something and just completely freak out so I think I'm going to have to go to the doctor or something to get some medication to help me calm down. But anyways, that was happening quite often and over spring break, I got to get away from all the stresses of what was going in Lubbock and didn't have to worry about a single thing and I cannot even begin to stress how amazing and nice that was. I didn't think about what was going on, didn't think about school, didn't think about work, didn't think about anything besides what was going on in that exact moment.. I remember standing outside one day and I started thinking and I was like "wow, I haven't thought about that in a few days" whereas what I was thinking about is something I think about everyday and it was just amazing really. I don't think I've really ever gotten the chance to relax that much, every trip I've been on has been with family or just hasn't been a long enough trip to actually relax that well and I'm not gonna lie, being near the beach wasn't so bad either ;) So anyways, ever since we got back, I've just been more relaxed and just more in the moment. And I have let loose and started enjoying myself more and will admit that I am being rebellious and getting alittle crazy but it's a phase I'm just going through. I've finally let my hair down after always being told to loosen up. And just tonight, by a very dear friend, was told that I had changed and wasn't the same person anymore and along with a few other things that really did hurt but won't be mentioned... What I have to say is: I'm not going to apologize for being who I am and for what I've done; I've learned from my actions and always take full responsibility for what I've done. I'm a smart girl, but as said, going through a phase, I'm being young and having fun and doing what I want to do.. I'm not going to just go completely bonkers, just experiencing life. So calm down. Some people just think that they really do understand fully and completely what one is going through and really, they don't. But, I'm done there.. I'm not going to defend myself. I don't have to, I deserve to be happy.
-Anyways, there is alot more I could say about about that, but I won't.
On another note, last week was a pretty hard week for some of us.. My brother's dog Treg had died and that was a pretty hard blow on all of us, esp Jaryd and Holly. Treg was one of the most amazzziiiiiing dogs EVER. Jaryd had taught him some tricks that were sooo funny and cute like you would wave at Treg and he would wave back.. that one was my favorite. I'm going to miss him like crazy, I already do. But I think the hardest part about it was knowing that Jaryd was sad and that there was nothing I could do. I'm a strong person but Jaryd is like 15 million times stronger than I am and I look up to him SO much and just knowing that he was hurt and sad just tore my heart apart. And then there was Holly, who made an unbelievable sacrifice for Jaryd that just makes me love her even more because it really does show just how much she loves and cares for Jaryd. I'm glad he had her there for him last week because I don't think he would've let any of us be there for him as much as she was for him. But anyways, thank you Holly for being there for him and loving and caring for him as much as you and for making the sacrifice, as hard as it was for you. Love yew :)
Speaking of dogs, Barbara has gotten Kylie into obdience classes and she's starting to get alittle smarter, but is still a brat. B has also gotten Maddie into agility classes and she's SOO excited about it.. She had to start her later into the class, by a few weeks, because of it being Valentine's Day at the store and not being able to give her time to the class and they let her start late anyways and Maddie has done amazing! She caught on reaalllllllllly fast; the teacher thought she had already taken another agility class, when she's never even done the stuff. So it's pretty cool :) She's such a smart dog.. she's one of those dogs that you could NOT show her how to do something but just tell her and she'll do it. (Okay, maybe not THAT extreme but you catch my drift) But anyways, I'm excited for B bc I know how much she loves doing that stuff and how much she loves dogs so its her "relaxing" time and Lord knows she needs a lot more of that. It'll be interesting to see how much Maddie develops and can't wait to see when she can do it all! :) Gunner is still cute as everrrrr. He's right there when I get home and follows me all the way to my room because he knows he's fixing to get alot of loving :) He's so frickin cute.
Anyways, it's late and I need to get some sleeeeeeep.
OH! Here's a little "quote" that I've fallen in love with that I now have on my "about me" on Myspace ha.
There is an inner beauty about a woman who believes in herself, who knows she is capable of anything she puts her mind to. There is a beauty in the strength and determination of a woman whose confidence comes from experiences; who knows she can fall, pick herself up and move on.
Until next time :)
Monday, March 23, 2009
Thursday, February 19, 2009
DC
We leave for DC tomorrow morning! YAY! SO excited! We'll get here 2ish and then there's a hotel on campus that we're staying at so as soon as we get there I guess we'll go check in real fast and then go to the admissions office so I can turn all of my stuff in and then we're scheduled for a tour at 4:00pm! Yay! And then Sat and Sun I guess we'll just do whatever. Sat night we're going to have dinner with Maggie :D :D and then Sunday we're gna play and look around and etc with Maggie before 4:00 (haha) - Can't wait to see her :]
Gotta go do laundry and pack and all that jazz. Boo.
Gotta go do laundry and pack and all that jazz. Boo.
Sunday, February 15, 2009
bleh
It's safe to say that 2009 has been, by far, the most challenging year thus far. And we're not even 2 months in yet. AHHH. And I haven't broken down since that one time! ... And that was before the rainfall came down.
I recently had to make a decision that was probably one of the HARDEST decisions I will EVER have to make in my entire life. What is it? You'll never know. But like someone told me, "there's not a right decision, just what is best" and I truly believe that my decision is and will be the best decision.
I think it's safe to say that I'm in over my head. But I'm strong, and I will get out okay. Speaking of "getting out", I cannot wait to get out of Lubbock.
Valentine's Day is over with, thank the Lord! My last Valentine's at the Candy Wrapper, thank the Lord! We did over our goal from last year's yay!
I'm tired. Peace outtt.
I recently had to make a decision that was probably one of the HARDEST decisions I will EVER have to make in my entire life. What is it? You'll never know. But like someone told me, "there's not a right decision, just what is best" and I truly believe that my decision is and will be the best decision.
I think it's safe to say that I'm in over my head. But I'm strong, and I will get out okay. Speaking of "getting out", I cannot wait to get out of Lubbock.
Valentine's Day is over with, thank the Lord! My last Valentine's at the Candy Wrapper, thank the Lord! We did over our goal from last year's yay!
I'm tired. Peace outtt.
Saturday, February 7, 2009
chika chika whoop whoop
Just thought I'd do a quick little update while I'm waiting on my car (getting an inspection and oil change whoooooo) and since Holly left a little comment "time to update" baha.
Lets see; I applied to TWU and just have to send in all my info (transcrips, etc) and then that'll be done. I'm still working on Gallaudet's; I've already done the application part, and got all my transcrips, audiogram and now just waiting on my two recommendations and then once I get all those then I'll write the essays and send it all in! :] I've been talking with some of the people from Gallaudet and so far I'm very impressed with their hospitality. I emailed them one night asking when the deadline was and I heard back first thing in the morning (really? what kind of a college emails back that fast?) and we sent a couple of emails back and forth in that day and she helped me with alot of my questions and then contacted others in the school; one guy about helping us plan our trip there, the CHAIR and PROFESSOR of the Department of Education emailed me and basically said that she's excited to meet me when we get there. That was really cool! (I thought) So, so far I'm really impressed :] And SUPER excited! I can't wait to go visit and actually get a feel of the school and etc just to make sure I want to go there. I think I will still be sure I want to after the visit, but never know. But the thing that I feel really good about is the fact that I told her what I wanted to do career-wise and she gave me ideas and she was like well theres this and this and contacted others in those departments to contact me so that when I get there I can meet them and talk to them and etc. Every time I go into the advisors office at Tech, they're like "well, we have this test you can take" or "you still have one more semester to decide" ...... Where the hell does that get me? Why don't you talk to me and find out what I want to do and work with me? A test is not going to determine what I want to do for the rest of my life, but thanks. So they're alot more personable and I really like that :]
I still have TWU in case all else fails :]
Austin told me to rent "fireproof" and I did.. and I gotta say, AMAZING movie. WATCH IT! Lots of good quotes :]
I kept meaning to update like 15 million times this week because I thought I had so much to say but now that I'm here, I'm having total brain farts.
I wish money grew on trees. Literally.
I really like my classes; I get to sign and be in the "deaf culture" and thats what I love and thats where my roots are and so its cool :]
I really do have the best friends :] Holly, Austin, Jen... (theres more, brain fart) Y'all are always there for me and let me vent all the freaking time hahaaa. Love y'all :]
My last day off was last Wed and I won't have one until after V-Day. Boo. I got a couple of giftcards for Christmas to Davidson-Taylor and I can get a massage, hair done, etc but I decided on a massage and facial maybe? and I'm totally saving it for after V-Day :] super excited about that.
And I really really really really really want to bust out the four-wheelers and just go riiiiiiide. Ahh.
Yeah.
Catch ya on the flip side ;]
Lets see; I applied to TWU and just have to send in all my info (transcrips, etc) and then that'll be done. I'm still working on Gallaudet's; I've already done the application part, and got all my transcrips, audiogram and now just waiting on my two recommendations and then once I get all those then I'll write the essays and send it all in! :] I've been talking with some of the people from Gallaudet and so far I'm very impressed with their hospitality. I emailed them one night asking when the deadline was and I heard back first thing in the morning (really? what kind of a college emails back that fast?) and we sent a couple of emails back and forth in that day and she helped me with alot of my questions and then contacted others in the school; one guy about helping us plan our trip there, the CHAIR and PROFESSOR of the Department of Education emailed me and basically said that she's excited to meet me when we get there. That was really cool! (I thought) So, so far I'm really impressed :] And SUPER excited! I can't wait to go visit and actually get a feel of the school and etc just to make sure I want to go there. I think I will still be sure I want to after the visit, but never know. But the thing that I feel really good about is the fact that I told her what I wanted to do career-wise and she gave me ideas and she was like well theres this and this and contacted others in those departments to contact me so that when I get there I can meet them and talk to them and etc. Every time I go into the advisors office at Tech, they're like "well, we have this test you can take" or "you still have one more semester to decide" ...... Where the hell does that get me? Why don't you talk to me and find out what I want to do and work with me? A test is not going to determine what I want to do for the rest of my life, but thanks. So they're alot more personable and I really like that :]
I still have TWU in case all else fails :]
Austin told me to rent "fireproof" and I did.. and I gotta say, AMAZING movie. WATCH IT! Lots of good quotes :]
I kept meaning to update like 15 million times this week because I thought I had so much to say but now that I'm here, I'm having total brain farts.
I wish money grew on trees. Literally.
I really like my classes; I get to sign and be in the "deaf culture" and thats what I love and thats where my roots are and so its cool :]
I really do have the best friends :] Holly, Austin, Jen... (theres more, brain fart) Y'all are always there for me and let me vent all the freaking time hahaaa. Love y'all :]
My last day off was last Wed and I won't have one until after V-Day. Boo. I got a couple of giftcards for Christmas to Davidson-Taylor and I can get a massage, hair done, etc but I decided on a massage and facial maybe? and I'm totally saving it for after V-Day :] super excited about that.
And I really really really really really want to bust out the four-wheelers and just go riiiiiiide. Ahh.
Yeah.
Catch ya on the flip side ;]
Monday, January 26, 2009
boo.
I'm on day #5 of being sick and it SUCKS. It hit me Thursday at work and then ever since that night I've been confined to my house. Sorta. Woke up Friday morning and had the achy body and the head that felt like a thousand pounds but still got up and ran SIX errands! SIX! good grief. Did miss class though.. But went to a meeting in which I found out some INCREDIBLE news, which I will detail about later ;] - and then Friday night just stayed home and Saturday was supposed to work and B covered my shift but then asked if I could come in 630-930 "if I felt better" .. so I suck it up and go in... and got worse. Sunday just went to eat lunch and ran a few errands, including getting some diff meds hoping they would help.. got the meds, but they don't help much :[ SOO B called the dr today and he said that if I had taken the meds he prescribed David and nothing helped then it's a viral infection.. and basically I would just have to wait it out and just take whatever meds I have to help with the "pain". BOOOOOOOOOOOOOO :[ I hope I get better by this weekend, I can't miss out on Maureen's 21st birthday din :[
Back to the incredible news. - my meeting on Friday was with DARS/VR services (the people/program that pays for my books and etc) and I was just there for a "checkup" meeting that I have to do every 3 months, beginning/end of the semester(s), etc. And was telling him about my plans to do deaf education and go to TWU in Denton and etc etc and he was throwing all this info at me about other schools and etc and Gallaudet came up.. Gallaudet is the deaf university in Washington DC that I've ALWAYS wanted to go to and was my first choice but too expensive blah blah blah. and anyways, he said that if I wanted to go and applied and got in and all that then he'd pay for it!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D :D :D :D So they'll pay for tuition, room/board, books, fees, food (on campus ofc) and etc and to fly me up there in the fall and fly me home in the spring when schools done :] so that was incredible, amazing news. SO needless to say I've already been working on my application, just have to write two essays, get two recommendations, get an audiogram, and get my transcripts/SAT scores. But I'm also still going to apply to TWU in Denton just to have options and etc. But yay! SO exciting! It's just one of those opportunities that I can't pass up without trying for it.
But anyways :]
I'm gna go watch "Charlie Wilson's War" and eat my Krispy Kreme donuts and chocolate milk :] YUM!
Back to the incredible news. - my meeting on Friday was with DARS/VR services (the people/program that pays for my books and etc) and I was just there for a "checkup" meeting that I have to do every 3 months, beginning/end of the semester(s), etc. And was telling him about my plans to do deaf education and go to TWU in Denton and etc etc and he was throwing all this info at me about other schools and etc and Gallaudet came up.. Gallaudet is the deaf university in Washington DC that I've ALWAYS wanted to go to and was my first choice but too expensive blah blah blah. and anyways, he said that if I wanted to go and applied and got in and all that then he'd pay for it!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D :D :D :D So they'll pay for tuition, room/board, books, fees, food (on campus ofc) and etc and to fly me up there in the fall and fly me home in the spring when schools done :] so that was incredible, amazing news. SO needless to say I've already been working on my application, just have to write two essays, get two recommendations, get an audiogram, and get my transcripts/SAT scores. But I'm also still going to apply to TWU in Denton just to have options and etc. But yay! SO exciting! It's just one of those opportunities that I can't pass up without trying for it.
But anyways :]
I'm gna go watch "Charlie Wilson's War" and eat my Krispy Kreme donuts and chocolate milk :] YUM!
Friday, January 2, 2009
whoaaaaa.. its been forever and a day since i've updated!
its now 2009 though! whoohoo!
I didn't really make any new year's resolutions bc for one, I didn't really think it out and two, I never follow through :] hahaa. but it looks like it's going to be interesting! applying to twu, so close to paying off my car, getting a new (used) car, visiting denton, last year at the cw :D, turning 21, last semester at TTU, mercedez's wedding, getting out of lubbock! whoohoo! i'm excited :]
so last week sometime i officially had my breakdown. everything got to be too much; my friends treating me like poop over and over and over and over and over, those that are closest to me in particular; just knowing that big changes are coming up and not really having the patience to wait and just wanting a new change, new people, new scenery, new everything; knowing that always do whatever i can and more for my friends and everybody and not feeling appreciated; butttttttt i drove around the lake, cried and got some hugs from zach and got to talk to barbara and spill it all out and feel MUCH better now.. little things are starting to come together like finding out twu's application deadline, classes for this semester, finding out that i can have my car paid off in like 6 or 7, maybe 5 more payments :D and trading it in/selling it and getting a new and more reliable car :D - thats extrememly exciting! .. idk what car yet but i'm trying to keep my mind open to options but it always goes back to the maxima's, which i've always loved. but. we'll see :] but all i can do right now on that area is just getting it paid off and work on the application to twu.. but anyways.
barbara and david are in dallas for the cotton bowl with chris and jen which means i'm watching our dogs and rusty :D he's so cute.. him and kylie played like crazy last night, chasing each other throughout the house and just going crazy and maddie and i "played ball" for like 5 hours, no joke. but it's been interesting bc maddie's in heat again and so her and gunner are pretty hot for each other right now so she has her panties on when she's in the house and when they're outside, maddie can't be out there with gunner or rusty so it's kinda been boys vs girls.. but its really funny when maddie and gunner start getting alittle hot and they wag their tails and get all happy and gunner looks back at me with this huge smile and maddie literally puts her butt in gunners face and turns into a slut and i have to break it up. and then theres kyli and rusty playing with each other, completely oblivious that their parents are trying to hook up again. bahaha. but anyways.
i can't think of anything else.
its now 2009 though! whoohoo!
I didn't really make any new year's resolutions bc for one, I didn't really think it out and two, I never follow through :] hahaa. but it looks like it's going to be interesting! applying to twu, so close to paying off my car, getting a new (used) car, visiting denton, last year at the cw :D, turning 21, last semester at TTU, mercedez's wedding, getting out of lubbock! whoohoo! i'm excited :]
so last week sometime i officially had my breakdown. everything got to be too much; my friends treating me like poop over and over and over and over and over, those that are closest to me in particular; just knowing that big changes are coming up and not really having the patience to wait and just wanting a new change, new people, new scenery, new everything; knowing that always do whatever i can and more for my friends and everybody and not feeling appreciated; butttttttt i drove around the lake, cried and got some hugs from zach and got to talk to barbara and spill it all out and feel MUCH better now.. little things are starting to come together like finding out twu's application deadline, classes for this semester, finding out that i can have my car paid off in like 6 or 7, maybe 5 more payments :D and trading it in/selling it and getting a new and more reliable car :D - thats extrememly exciting! .. idk what car yet but i'm trying to keep my mind open to options but it always goes back to the maxima's, which i've always loved. but. we'll see :] but all i can do right now on that area is just getting it paid off and work on the application to twu.. but anyways.
barbara and david are in dallas for the cotton bowl with chris and jen which means i'm watching our dogs and rusty :D he's so cute.. him and kylie played like crazy last night, chasing each other throughout the house and just going crazy and maddie and i "played ball" for like 5 hours, no joke. but it's been interesting bc maddie's in heat again and so her and gunner are pretty hot for each other right now so she has her panties on when she's in the house and when they're outside, maddie can't be out there with gunner or rusty so it's kinda been boys vs girls.. but its really funny when maddie and gunner start getting alittle hot and they wag their tails and get all happy and gunner looks back at me with this huge smile and maddie literally puts her butt in gunners face and turns into a slut and i have to break it up. and then theres kyli and rusty playing with each other, completely oblivious that their parents are trying to hook up again. bahaha. but anyways.
i can't think of anything else.
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