whoaaaaa.. its been forever and a day since i've updated!

its now 2009 though! whoohoo!
I didn't really make any new year's resolutions bc for one, I didn't really think it out and two, I never follow through :] hahaa. but it looks like it's going to be interesting! applying to twu, so close to paying off my car, getting a new (used) car, visiting denton, last year at the cw :D, turning 21, last semester at TTU, mercedez's wedding, getting out of lubbock! whoohoo! i'm excited :]

so last week sometime i officially had my breakdown. everything got to be too much; my friends treating me like poop over and over and over and over and over, those that are closest to me in particular; just knowing that big changes are coming up and not really having the patience to wait and just wanting a new change, new people, new scenery, new everything; knowing that always do whatever i can and more for my friends and everybody and not feeling appreciated; butttttttt i drove around the lake, cried and got some hugs from zach and got to talk to barbara and spill it all out and feel MUCH better now.. little things are starting to come together like finding out twu's application deadline, classes for this semester, finding out that i can have my car paid off in like 6 or 7, maybe 5 more payments :D and trading it in/selling it and getting a new and more reliable car :D - thats extrememly exciting! .. idk what car yet but i'm trying to keep my mind open to options but it always goes back to the maxima's, which i've always loved. but. we'll see :] but all i can do right now on that area is just getting it paid off and work on the application to twu.. but anyways.

barbara and david are in dallas for the cotton bowl with chris and jen which means i'm watching our dogs and rusty :D he's so cute.. him and kylie played like crazy last night, chasing each other throughout the house and just going crazy and maddie and i "played ball" for like 5 hours, no joke. but it's been interesting bc maddie's in heat again and so her and gunner are pretty hot for each other right now so she has her panties on when she's in the house and when they're outside, maddie can't be out there with gunner or rusty so it's kinda been boys vs girls.. but its really funny when maddie and gunner start getting alittle hot and they wag their tails and get all happy and gunner looks back at me with this huge smile and maddie literally puts her butt in gunners face and turns into a slut and i have to break it up. and then theres kyli and rusty playing with each other, completely oblivious that their parents are trying to hook up again. bahaha. but anyways.

i can't think of anything else.