open your future to unseen possibilities

Um. What am I doing? Don't I have better things to do with my time?

Uh, no.



I guess I'll go ahead and begin with how my "awesome" day is going.

After waking up an hour late, I still had enough time to do whatever it is I did with this mop of a head hair thing, put make up and clothes on, but not able to shower (grosssss!! good thing we didn't work out too hard last night - everything happens for a reason right?) and barely making it to the bus stop which consists of having enough time to get out of my car, walk to the bus stop (which is only like 20 feet away mind you) and being able to check and reply to a text message and then watch (actually hear, my hearing skills are excellent, we all know!) the bus roll up very loudly and deal with a "miss-priss" the entire way, who is probably a sorostitute, look at my outfit up and down probably about 35 times.. note to her: "Yes, I'm wearing tennis shoes and not heels to school today! and YES my hair looks like a mop and YES I'm wearing glasses to cover up the fact that I didn't want to do my eye makeup and YES.... you're a bitch. thanks." - the walk to my first class was dreadful; the wind was blowing against me the entire way and then when I get to class......................... it's cancelled. Do we not believe in e-mails now??!?!?!?! Although I do secretly get excited that when I go to class, it's cancelled but really, it frustrates me because I have to drive 20-30 minutes just to get to the bus stop and I could've slept more! AND I had to deal with miss priss. AND the wind AND the cold. Anyways after my 30 second silent-in-the-head-bitch-fit I proceeded to the library to waste time, sit down for about 2 minutes or so and have a cough attack. Are you kidding me? So I ever so smoothly "packed up my stuff" and walked out of the closest door and proceeded to cough my brains out and have another 30 second silent-in-the-head-bitch-fit and then decide to treat myself to a nice, warm white chocolate mocha, which tastes like the marshmallows in LuckyCharms - DELISH! - finally calm at this point - go to my 2nd class and decide that I'll catch up on the news and blah blah blah and started getting everything ready for my next class, only to realize that stupid me forgot to make copies of the paper for the other group members.. so this consists of another trip to the library to make copies... alright, so this is the part where I find out that I'm copy-machine-retarded. I was putting the paper that I wanted copied at the wrong angle so it was printing off wrong and I ran out of money on my card and didn't notice how the pages were being printed off until this point. Of course I didn't think I was doing anything wrong so I figured somebody messed with the settings on the copier so put more money in my card and went to another copy machine and it did the same thing!!!!! Finally it clicks in my head that I was putting the paper wrong. So I had to start over. But do I have enough money on my card? Nope. Now, I had already put the only 1's that I had into it and I wasn't about to put $20 on there... so I ask the foreign lady at the desk for change. "no change. must go to sub" (imagine that in a foreign lanuage, annnnooyyyyinnnnggg. choke the chicken!) Class has already started at this point. So I walk the whole 50 yards to the sub from the library to get change and finally make the copies right and am 20 minutes late to class. I hate that. Then we had to do a teacher evaluation. Gay. Well I decide to leave bc I'm frustrated enough and my teacher's like uhhh.. So I make up a gay excuse that I'm sick and the wind is bothering me and walk away. Peace! And that's what lead me to the library to start up this wonderful blog to vent :] Now, maybe Holly can finally find some peace from her phone from me texting her 7643211 times a day... just to vent... about stupid stuff... "the freaking sky is BLUE today!!?! Why is it BLUE?! Why can't it be YELLOW?!" <-- that kind of stupid stuff. - Ahh hmm... ANYWAYS. Other than that, I really do lead a happy life. I promise.

And things are finally starting to look up - I've finally decided that I'm going to major in Deaf Education (if I change my mind, slap me.. HARD!) but Tech doesn't really offer anything to do with that (well, very little at least) SO I was thinking about transferring to Gallaudet in Washington, DC. [Fact: Exactly 1.722 miles away, takes 1 day and 2 hours to get there] Problem: it's ONLY about $20,000 a SEMESTER. hmm. So after talking to Barbara and her reminding me how LUCKY I am that I don't have to pay for my tuition or anything, I started thinking, "Do I really want to be about 100,000+ in debt when I start my life/career? No thanks." (huge props to those of you who are having to do that!) SO I'm now looking at places in Texas - one being TCU in Ft. Worth, but I've got to first find out if they even do accept the deaf tuition waiver with it being a private school and all. So that's my first step. If that school doesn't work out then theres the other options of Baylor, Stephen F. Austin, and Texas Women's University. All outside of Lubbock, thank the LODE! So I'm getting excited about all that. And that's what I'll be working on today when I get home... after getting my nails done (maybe?) :]

So before posting this, I was playing around on the internet and went to read my horoscope for November and this is what it said: (silly parts taken out)
"Cosmic waves rattle your home, shake the foundations of your life and open your future to unseen possibilities. As great as these changes may be, they won't happen overnight. In fact, it may be well into next year before you fully understand where your life is leading you. Responsibilities that were acceptable only a short time ago now prevent you from being true to yourself. The Sun shines light on this conflict as it sextiles Jupiter and Saturn, and trines Uranus on November 10-11. The Full Moon on November 13 is even more significant because Jupiter sextiles Uranus, opening a door to new relationships while revitalizing old ones."

love it, and so true (don't worry, i'm not a follower, i just think they're interesting)

"...open your future to unseen possibilities. As great as these changes may be, they won't happen overnight. In fact, it may be well into next year before you fully understand where your life is leading you." that part is true because lately i've sparked a huge interest in other possibilities rather than staying in lubbock, going to tech, and staying at the candy wrapper. and as much as I want them to happen overnight because I want to know what the future (as far as that part goes at least) entails right now it's not going to, it all takes time and patience and then everything will fall into place :] and as far as it saying "it may be well into next year before you fulling understand where your life is leading you" -i've been planning on taking a mild break from school (only taking one or two classes) to figure what I'm going to do and all that jazz. and its next year ;] "Responsibilities that were acceptable only a short time ago now prevent you from being true to yourself." I apply that to the part of being at the candy wrapper. I really do like the job but it's held me down and held me from going to experience other jobs and doing other things and getting away from the "family business" and away from the luxury of getting away with things because my aunt is my boss. That job was like my responsibility (just like any other job, I understand) but I'm held down and stuck. And that's going to hopefully change soon :]


But anyways. I think that's good for one day. Whew.